I feel like shit. I hate being sick; not just because of the sickness itself. The biggest reason is that when you're single and sick, it reminds you of just how alone you really are. Sure, you've got friends and family that might come by to check in on you, but it's not the same and you know it. There's nothing like having someone baby you; pull the blanket up over your shoulder as you fall asleep on the couch watching episodes of Maury "Who Da' Baby Daddy?" (Not that I would indulge in such drivel since it's on 3 times a day on Channel 13); make sure you eat something; gets mad at you if you get up or do anything other than rest.It's at these times that we feel completely isolated. When you've been isolated for so long, you almost become numb to those emotions that subsume so many in relationships. Don't get me wrong; it's not like I don't enjoy time to myself. Hell, I'm my own best friend. It's just that there are certain highs and lows that you experience only in relationships. You just sort of shut down your certain parts of yourself when you're alone for too long.
And then to top off this feeling, after a doctor's visit yesterday morning, it turns out that I am developing allergies. For 36 years, I have not developed them. I move to Atlanta and within 14 months, I'm snotty and miserable. My doctor was pretty cool though; she gave me enough samples for like 2 weeks and prescriptions and even another prescription in case this episode turns into a full blown sinus infection. So being sick when you're single truly sucks .... but at least I've got drugs.
(Sorry to be such a downer; no doubt it's the effect of too many drugs at once. I have enough drugs in me right now to put a horse down)
12 comments:
Awww, you poor thing. I feel for ya. I'd pull the blankets up over your shoulder if I lived less than 12 hours away. I bet there will be no allergies in Mexico.
Can't believe you didn't develop allergies during your time in Cincinnati. This place is notorious for its "air quality". Get well soon, champ.
allergies aren't so bad; the drugs work really well. ;)
i hope that you feel better soon.
Reading this post makes me believe that guys really do feel lonely, too. That's EXACTLY how I felt as I got older and older and still the boyfriend never materialized. Thank you for showing clearly that guys hurt, too.
Aww, hope you feel better dude. Don't watch too much Maury, though...
Being sick SUCKS!
I fianlly went to the Dr. today. I also got a crapload of drugs. Zithromax, an inhaler, special cough drops and the advice to continue taking Advil cold and sinus. It confuses me to take so much medicine. I can't manage the whole times and dosage business.
I hope we get better soon.
Andi-
Ooooh, you so own me right now.
Deeesguy-
I think I was more afraid of developing River Bend disease that I completely overlooked allergies.
Jen-
Drugs are pretty damn good ... when they work! Thanks for the wishes ;)
Regina-
Guys get just as lonely as women; we just hold it in better I guess.
Lindsay-
Is there such a thing as too much Maury???
Kelly-
At least we're sick together!! We can wallow in our misery at the same time.
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