Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Where Is My Dulcinea??

Sonnet LXXXI

And now you're mine. Rest with your dream in my dream.

Love and pain and work should all sleep, now.

The night turns on its invisible wheels,

and you are pure beside me as a sleeping amber.

No one else, Love, will sleep in my dreams. You will go,

we will go together, over the waters of time.

No one else will travel through the shadows with me,

only you, evergreen, ever sun, ever moon.

Your hands have already opened their delicate fists

and let their soft drifting signs drop away;

your eyes closed like two gray wings, and I move

after, following the folding water you carry, that carries

me away. The night, the world, the wind spin out their destiny.

Without you, I am your dream, only that, and that is all.

-Pablo Neruda

It's another Valentine's Day and yes, like many of you, I'm alone. I look back at my relationship with ML and I realized that towards the end, I wasn't inspired.

If I was inspired, I would've just hopped in my Jeep and drove down unannounced to fix things. I would've sent letters for no reason other than to say "I love you. I would've tried to hold back the tide. Instead, I didn't want to get wet anymore.

Like all of you, I want to be inspired to do crazy things for love. I want to call for no reason other than to hear her voice. I want to write letters that ramble aimlessly professing my undying love. I think I may want the dream.

But even in reality, there is something great. I know I'm going to slaughter this thought, but in the move "High Fidelity" there is a point where my alter ego Rob Gordon is talking about fantasy and reality of being with someone. He mentions to his girlfriend about how when you first meet someone, there is the fantasy of lingerie. Yet his girlfriend has those worn cotton panties hanging in the bathroom. The fantasy isn't real and those cotton panties are, in their own way, real and comforting. I know it's a terrible analogy, but everytime I see the movie, I soooooooo understand what he is saying.

And speaking of underwear, only Lindsay say she'd wear the "Liberal" thong (of course, I had to prompt the response ... lol). Anyways, I would say Happy Valentines Day but let's face it, most people hate it.


A. Estella Sassypants said...

I haven't seen High Fidelity (read part of the book) but now I want to. I get the analogy.

DCNats said...

You quoted Neruda and Rob Gordon in the same blog post and made it work. I tip my hat to you.

sonrisa morena said...

i need to see high fidelity, dcn,santis and cc have recommended it!!!! and now i read this!! now i'm really curious!! AND i'm wearing my "Liberal" thong as we speak ;-)

btw i love the peom

Brookelina said...

We all want our Dulcinea...unfortunately we usually wind up with Aldonza.

Lindsay said...

LoL, happy belated Valentine's Day!

NML said...

Lovely post! I like what you said about the effort. Hindsight gives us 20:20 vision about those we loved. Happy belated valentine's darling. I must point out that I had no idea that guys gave a shit about this day. Yikes!

JHD said...

It's because deep down, (in places he doesn't talk about at parties) Devil is a ball o' mush.

Devil, you do know that S still sometimes looks at the new crop of trainees looking for your perfect match? Then she remembers where you are.

Perhaps we need to set up a blog dating service. You've got all these lovely women reading your blog, I'm sure one of them would love you even more in person.

Now I sound like S, don't I? ;)

unforgiving b*tch said...

Happy Belated Valentine's Day...and yes it's true most of us hate the holiday. I celebrated it by working and working some more....

jennifer said...

i love pablo neruda's love poems.
i spent v-day alone, too. in a hotel prepping for a job interview. while all the rooms around me had "privacy please" signs hanging from their doorknobs. i think i win the pathetic valentine.

Cincysundevil said...

You should watch "High Fidelity". It is a superb movie.

Cincysundevil said...

I thank ya' for your words sir!

Cincysundevil said...

Let me know once you see it and what you think about it. And that is pretty sexy that you're wearing the thong!!

Cincysundevil said...

So true ... I usually end up being Sancho myself; a comical sidekick.

Cincysundevil said...

Thank ya darling. And thanks for wearing the thong!

Cincysundevil said...

We guys always surprise ya! I think guys feel the pressure either to get the right gift or the pressure from not having someone give you the right gifts.

Cincysundevil said...

No way! I'm a hardcore guy! There is no mush here ..... ok, maybe I am a bit of a softie.

I know you won't believe it but I do miss you guys up there.

Cincysundevil said...

You can always take that cash from working so much and buy yourself something to treat yourself!

Cincysundevil said...

Don't worry. I was here in Atlanta watching TV all night. There wasn't a romantic thing anywhere near me..