Where Is My Dulcinea??

Sonnet LXXXI

And now you're mine. Rest with your dream in my dream.

Love and pain and work should all sleep, now.

The night turns on its invisible wheels,

and you are pure beside me as a sleeping amber.

No one else, Love, will sleep in my dreams. You will go,

we will go together, over the waters of time.

No one else will travel through the shadows with me,

only you, evergreen, ever sun, ever moon.

Your hands have already opened their delicate fists

and let their soft drifting signs drop away;

your eyes closed like two gray wings, and I move

after, following the folding water you carry, that carries

me away. The night, the world, the wind spin out their destiny.

Without you, I am your dream, only that, and that is all.

-Pablo Neruda

It's another Valentine's Day and yes, like many of you, I'm alone. I look back at my relationship with ML and I realized that towards the end, I wasn't inspired.

If I was inspired, I would've just hopped in my Jeep and drove down unannounced to fix things. I would've sent letters for no reason other than to say "I love you. I would've tried to hold back the tide. Instead, I didn't want to get wet anymore.

Like all of you, I want to be inspired to do crazy things for love. I want to call for no reason other than to hear her voice. I want to write letters that ramble aimlessly professing my undying love. I think I may want the dream.

But even in reality, there is something great. I know I'm going to slaughter this thought, but in the move "High Fidelity" there is a point where my alter ego Rob Gordon is talking about fantasy and reality of being with someone. He mentions to his girlfriend about how when you first meet someone, there is the fantasy of lingerie. Yet his girlfriend has those worn cotton panties hanging in the bathroom. The fantasy isn't real and those cotton panties are, in their own way, real and comforting. I know it's a terrible analogy, but everytime I see the movie, I soooooooo understand what he is saying.

And speaking of underwear, only Lindsay say she'd wear the "Liberal" thong (of course, I had to prompt the response ... lol). Anyways, I would say Happy Valentines Day but let's face it, most people hate it.